Saturday, March 27, 2004

I am back in chennai after graduation and the last few days at ISB. Its over with the course at ISB. It still hasnt sunk in that I will not be going back to my room in SV3, and there will no more be classes to attend. It still feels like a small break I have taken to come back home and its only a matter of time before I go back to the campus. Well, to be frank, it feels very funny to be back home doing nothing. Life feels suddenly blank. Recounting the last few days will probably help me come to terms with reality.

Graduation was a magnificent day. For me especially, for I did not go through a convocation ceremony when I completed my engineering. The academic regalia heightened the feeling that I was going through something very significant in my life. Looking at Rajat Gupta and Anil Ambani lead us in procession to the stage, actually walking in that gown to the stage, receiving the certificate, shaking hands and flipping the tassle across to the left, it felt surreal, oddly dream like. Anil spoke about his conversations with Dhirubhai, the practicality of the MBA education and the need to realize that this is where the learning really starts. Rajat emphasized that. So true, for I wonder how life is going to span out at work with all these frameworks in mind. There is so much that I think I have learnt but I wonder how I am going to relate all that to what is going to happen day to day. I look forward to life now, one of the reasons being, I want to see how much what this one year has taught me is actually going to change the way I work, handle people and my self.

The graduation ceremony in itself brought into focus how much this one year has meant not only to many of us at ISB but to ISB itself. In all the melee of the one year, from admissions to placements, it was so easy to have lost out on the bigger picture. At the end of the day, beyond the job that we will be going to, beyond that money we are going to make, beyond the career growth we are going to see, as "alumni", ISB has a lot of stake in the way we are going to carry ourselves. From the smallest help we can do to ISB, to being a role model that will build the ISB brand name, brick by brick, each one of us now have a greater part to play in building this dream. Ethics, discipline and hard work from each and every one of us means a lot to a lot more people that ever before.

ISB was full with the family and friends of many of us. For my parents, as it was for every parent on that day, it was a proud moment. For the professors who had flown down to see us graduate, for the staff of ISB who had put up with us for the whole of 11 months, for every worker at Sarovar, who had made our life so much more comfortable without being noticed, this event was significant for their own reasons. It was wonderful and moving to see all of them standing along the stage, applauding us and happy for us. Many of us will be leaving them, possibly to never see them again. We had just spent 11 months with them. But still, there seemed this bonding they had developed that made them feel that way.

The last few days after graduation were very unnerving. How do you feel when until yesterday, you spent the whole of 11 months, every little moment of your life in a campus teeming with 220 of your own friends and suddenly you see them leaving, one after the other. Every time you walked out, you had someone leaving. It did not hit me initially for I never realized that I would never see them again. Only when I went to the dining hall for lunch and dinner did it start showing up. And when it was time for me to leave, my room mates were still there, to say good bye. Saurabh, especially, for he and I had spent the whole of the year together, sharing every moment of triumph and stress. I possibly cant see this campus without the same old guys. It will never be the same. Makes you realize that more than anything else, its the people who make the campus what it is.

Back home, its been funny. Suddenly absolutely nothing to do. My dear old modem, which loyally served me for so many years died on the day I returned. So, I am disconnected as well. I am killing time reading some books I always wanted to, with prince of persia on my brother's new PS2, watching TV, sleeping and eating but it feels very funny. Its the same city I spent 25 years in. I have only come back after 2 years but suddenly all my friends are gone. Some married, some abroad and others in other cities. Suddenly I find myself alone, disconnected and feeling lazy and funny. Life has changed suddenly. The pace of change... striking.

I will back in ISB in another 2 weeks for orientation. Its the same campus but now there will be 280 new faces... its going to be a different campus. I wonder how it will be to mix thoughts of my 11 months with the same place now being occupied by a new set of excited souls. Life will move on...

Tuesday, March 23, 2004

There is so much to be done before I can say bye to ISB. Clearances, collecting my stuff, physical and digital, packing, calling up friends, so much to be done!

I guess I will get a chance to do one long post before I leave this place and leave this blog to rest for sometime... expect one in the next few days. Until then, sorry, I am extremely busy winding up and watching cricket ;)

Sunday, March 21, 2004

My best friend is getting married today in chennai. I wont be there because of my exam in the afternoon today. It something I am not able to come to grips with today, when I realize that after 8 years of what has been an unforgettable friendship, I wont be there to see her getting married or for that matter not be able to meet her before she leaves for the US. I called my parents just now and they were leaving for the wedding. A lot of thoughts come to my mind at this moment. All the fun we have had together. Cannot be defined by words.

Today is the last day of exams at ISB. My final exam in Marketing Implementation concludes all academic activities. Well, there are a lot of sentimental mails floating around. Those who had leased laptops begin to give up their laptops tomm onwards. It is like a symbolic disconnection from ISB to give up your laptop and disconnect yourself from the campus mails. Over the past year, spam mails have been part and parcel of our culture. Anything from lost pencils and underwear to hate mails to complaints and praises. For us, without laptops and mails, this place can be pretty strange. Fortunately, I give up my laptop late, thanks to my last name. But what I am going to do afterwards is a pretty scary thought!

The next week is disorientation. Lots of activities, partying, the formal graduation dinner etc. There is so much to be done in terms of arranging for moving my stuff, my books, burning my stuff onto CDs... meeting up with other friends in hyd ...

There are too many thoughts and sentiments running through my mind right now. Its been magnified that much by everyone around me and the way they feel and react.

My mind is choking...

Thursday, March 18, 2004

Some random thoughts while I complete my org design project...

I am listening to "Ayutha Ezhuthu" (Yuva in hindi). ARR and Manirathnam combo always works wonders. Being a die hard ARR fan, my expectations were very high. They were matched by the music. "jana gana mana" is brilliant and so is "Yakkai thiri". It hit me instantly, unlike most songs of ARR that grow on you. ARR rules. What talent! I wonder what is the thought process that goes on inside his brain. I wish I cud know it, even better feel it. A brilliant musician's thought process.

Nearly 3 months back, when Raghuram Rajan was here, he had talked about the job loss in the US. Employment being a leading indicator, should be on the up if the US economy is recovering. But it is down because productivity is up so much that some lost jobs might never come back. I read a report about exactly the same, in fact well written, in economic times yesterday. I am not able to catch the URL again. But reading about outsourcing and how politicians in the US are using this in the presidential elections shows they are no less then Indian politicians when it comes to exploiting a sensitive topic to their advantage.

I was watching some cricket over dinner and saw Kallis batting agains the kiwis. I would love to see him make that 6th century. I thought he was one cricketer who deserved the SA captaincy for all the talent and maturity he has shown. Not that Smith is bad but Kallis, I thought got a raw deal. At another edge of the world, Gilchrist showed brilliance. I saw some of his shots in the news. Especially one straight drive that was just a block, not even a punch. Sheer timing and brilliance.

Talking about cricket, I was in trance when I saw saching move from 40 to 141 in the second ODI. Sachin was pure genius. Like his good old self that dominates the opposition naturally. I have been watching sachin for such a long time, that some inner feeling told me that this innings was something special, very natural, unlike what he has been playing of late. Oh, I loved his innings. Seeing him hit a boundary at will, there isnt a better sight in cricket.

Well, hitting the bed now... One of the last few days of my stay in my favourite room. (A lot such sentiments from me over the next few days :D)




Countdown to graduation: 8 days to go...
Today is the last day of classes at ISB for me. Its 2:40 pm now and in another 2 hours, I will attend my last class. The first class we attended, our first case discussion during the take charge module at the beginning of the year is still fresh in my memory. I cruel aspect of a one year MBA is that time flies and you realize very soon that you are at the end of it all... too soon for comfort. I have one good photograph of me in the class to cherish.

Of course, there are a lot of such last times that are going by very quickly for me. My last class together with a few close friends. Last project report. Last mid term exam. Last assignment. Last class participation. Hmmm... looks like if I start getting senti, there is no limit.

I saw the movie "12 angry men" late last night. I had seen snippets from it during the negotiation analysis course. I saw the whole movie this time. Brilliant. If anyone gets a chance, see how one room and 12 men are enough for a talented director to create a gripping movie. Prof.Madan Pilutla had extracted concepts in negotiation from scenes in this movie which was a revelation. Had never looked at a movie from that perspective before.

I think I have become a bit too used to the pleasant weather that hyd holds out for you for most of the year. The heat wave is on now and although I am from chennai, I am simply not able to bear the heat. For all those visiting hyd, I recommend umbrellas, caps, airconditioning, anything that can keep you cool...

Check out politicalcompass.org. I belong to the liberitarian left. Not surpised at all! I always thought I was like that ;)

Countdown to graduation: 9 days to go.

Sunday, March 14, 2004

The uncertainties in life are too many at this point in time. I certainly want to continue this blog beyond my graduation.

The first uncertainty: I have a cyrix 233, 16 mb ram, 33.6 modem, win 95 machine at home. Its an antique piece. But it is my first and only computer. There have been times when I spent oodles of my time on it and there is this seemingly explainable bonding... those who are crazy about computers will understand... Ever since I came to hyd, my little brother has not been putting it to good use. I hope it will be in a state in which I can use it.

The second uncertainty: Verizon. They simply arent letting me know my joining date... :( They are apparently busy shifting offices in chennai. I have to co ordinate that, orientation for the next class and my free time...

The third uncertainty: Me. :) Sometimes i feel the need for time off after ISB. Other times I am raring to get out, join work and kick ass. Confused...

Amidst all this, I wish I get the time, a good enough computer and time to keep this blog going... I really want to. So I guess I will.
After a long hiatus, im back online again... Term 8 is getting to be as busy as any other term... there is so much work to do... my whole sunday went in meetings for assignments and projects... what a sunday! i feel so tired at the end of it all that i want to sleep for a whole day... but i still have to read the case for tomorrow's 9 am class... someone help me :(((

countdown to graduation: 12 days to go...

Wednesday, March 10, 2004

After the mayhem that my attempt to picture things has caused, I am determined to find out an easy way to do it. Ashwin just registered at photobucket. It seems to work... thanks! :)

I was part of the same study group for the first four terms at ISB. 6 of us, totally diverse. Me the software/telecom guy. A shippee (that what we call anyone who was sailing before coming here). Another running his family business. All in the 26-28 age group. The remaining three were in the 22-24 age group. One, a masters in industrial engg from the US, another from infrastructure and construction and finally the better 1/6th of the group, a girl with a fin background.

In a way, the kind of group bonding that many of us in some other group never really happened. Though all of us are great friends of each other, we had out own circle of friends by the end of the first term, and none of those circles had anyone else from the group. We did assignments together, aced some, scored pathetically in some, spent nights together, even slept once in the same apartment... conflicts, fights, clash of personalities, what not... but it was fun... all of us understood that this is the way things happen when 6 such different people are put in the same group and put under time pressure...

I guess none of us got together after the core terms for any of the elective term groups. But the 4 months of interaction we had is something that will live with us for a long time... it was enjoyable after all... all of us learnt a lot i guess...

Another 20 days and we will be out of this place... So we got together and went out for dinner day before yesterday... it was fun... reliving the days of our first marketing case (which was a monster) to all the goof ups, wins and fights... it was the first time we actually went out together...

we went to angeethi... one of the many good restaurants in hyd... some beer, great food, lots of leg pulling, the usual gossip and photos galore.. atleast a couple of us felt we should have gone out more frequently... like how many other groups did... but looking back, i guess we were all too focussed on a lot of other things that we never thought about it... anyways, better late than never... it was a fun evening...

here is a picture of the evening... lalit, Shiv, mua, Raj, Sonal and Gaurav...

Tuesday, March 09, 2004

More holi pictures:
http://www.shutterfly.com/osi.jsp?i=67b0de21b34e0212657a

Credits go to Ian Vacin, one of the exchange students from Kellogg.

Monday, March 08, 2004

And so, go to www.geocities.com/rsramkee/holi.htm

Atleast now do you see the picture?

Sunday, March 07, 2004

Irritating geocities does not allow you to link pictures directly! I thought I wud put up the picture here and all attempts have failed!
Ok, 4th posting for the day...

From Rajan's Rambling, I picked up this interesting post about PageRank, and also another one about matrix and entrepreneurship... Good reads...
Btw, did I mention?

I love typos...
Sunday blues. I am feeling so damn lazy. Have been in the library since morning, reading up Wired magazine/Scientific American/Business World/All newspapers/Auto India, watching schumi show his class, eating lots of food from the brunch, gulping down lots of diet coke and on and on and on... Even read a case thinking I have to submit the analysis tomorrow when the actual submission is on wednesday. All this while I came here to study for my midterm in OD tomorrow. Huh... I am very angry with this guy inside me who is not pushing me in the right direction...

Wired Mag had a wonderful cover story covering Google from so many different angles... I love google so much and it was fascinating reading about content spammers, pagerank's intricate details, the possibilities for Google post IPO, aout larry page and the other guy and how Google simple text ads are generating double the number of average clickthroughs that any other banner ads on the net.

Scientific Amercan had a very interesting article about a particular mutation found in 10% of europeans which means that their bodies dont allow HIV to get hooked on to their body cells. The article was about how scientists are trying to trace the origin of the mutation to either the great plague that hit europe or the geographical spread of small pox. Interesting indeed.

It was interesting to read all this hoopla about Warren Buffet investing in ONGC and then his denials. The denial came yesterday evening and still Hindustan Times screams on front page today about his investment in ONGC!

Auto India's dec 03 issue reviewed the new Honda City. I had read about the diesel engine of the new City in some other mag and have been in love with this car ever since. How much I wish I could buy one for myself. Guess I have settle for a small little Santro Xing. Or maybe I will wait for the Chevy Spark. I always loved the Matiz.

Yesterday as I made another trip to "The spicy venue" in Jubilee Hills for another heavy Andhra meals dinner, I was wondering what drives people like Schumi. Today as I read his quotes after the win, I am left all that more wondering...

Ok, the following is a very bad attempt at poetry that I am risking publishing here... I wrote it for a friend of mine here at ISB... but it turned out so bad that I decided not to publish it... But still, for all the damn effort I took to write it, I am going to put it here... If it puts you off, forget my blog for a few days while it travels down this page into the archives...

When the going gets tough
When sailing in sea so rough

A friend emerges from as a cohort
Lending a shoulder for support

A smile here
A laugh there

All ears when you wanted to talk
Always there for a comforting walk

There were altercations galore
Fights when we have screamed war

Only to end up together in
Support through think and thin

We have with us impressive perks
We are armed with all the frameworks

But it is friends like you
Who make it difficult to bid adieu

Saturday, March 06, 2004

have been busy preparing for a mid term tomorrow. plus holi bash is happening big time in the student villages. more about that later. The remote tokyo suburb where I spent two weeks was kashiwa. Now, I hope it is some kind of a suburb of tokyo as it was just two hours from Narita. hmm...

btw,

this happened in one of the GDs and all the IT folks can relate to this. Out of the box thinking if I can say that...

This was during a group discussion where the topic given was, "What are the similarities in project management and bollywood movie making"

The opening statement: In project management, we have the waterfall model. In bollywood, we have the model under the waterfall.

:))

Tuesday, March 02, 2004

Lost in translation was brilliant. I have lived in Japan for a couple of weeks, that too all alone, out of the blue, without knowing the language, without a translator at times, using just sign language at which I am the poorest, that too in a remote suburb of tokyo. I could relate to this movie so very well. Bill Murray was excellent. I had not heard of Scarlett Johansson before this movie. Checked her filmography but certainly dont remember her from "home alone 3" or "the horse whisperer". I almost fell in love with this girl. In the final few scenes, the silence had so much meaning. Brilliant. Well, I guess I am going overboard a bit but to put it simply, "if you haven't seen it, you better see it"

I read this article about the H1B thing in the US: http://www.businessweek.com/bwdaily/dnflash/mar2004/nf2004032_4623_db047.htm
Very sensible.

Life has been pretty boring this week. Simply too many assignments, project reports, one page memos, etc. For those who watch tamil movies, I am reminded of Kamal's tamil movie, "Anbe Sivam" and the way he introduces nasser in the movie. All these profs appear such, with due apologies ;)

But of course, that doesnt prevent me from escaping in the night from all my group meets to watch "Khakee" for the fourth time (!!!) in the night at Prasad's in hyd. Not that I like this movie but somehow everytime I go, this seems to be the only movie with tickets available. I am going to book in advance next time.

I finished reading the book "the biography of a germ". Kinda got a bit boring towards the end but if you want something very diverse and different to read, like me, I suggest you pick this book, skip the first 5 chapters and read on.

How many times have you found that you listen to a song in the morning when you are in a hurry getting ready for the day and then end up humming that song throughout the day without your knowledge. Its happening to me again today. I sleep with songs playing in low volume. So everyday when I get up, I have some random song playing and today was "Mr. Cellophane" one of my favourites. Kinda getting tired of humming it. Guess I will have to go home and play something else to reload my mind. Maybe some old A R Rahman hits. Im in the mood to listen to melodies today. need to soothe myself because I have a screwed up schedule. a class at 9 in the morning and the next one at 4:30 in the evening, with eternity inbetween when you dont know what to do!

For the admitted to ISB folks in chennai,
One of my fellow students from the class of 04, Karthik Srinivasan, has asked me to inform that he will be in chennai on the 12th(Friday) and the 13th(Saturday). He will be along with his wife Divya, who is an alum from the founding batch.

In case you guys in chennai are interested in meeting them, someone please take the lead, co-ordinate and let him know the date and the time in advance so that he can plan his schedule.

You can get in touch with him at karthik_srinivasan@pgp2004.isb.edu